Oh boy.........

     I'm back.  It has been MANY years since I have been on here.  In that time, I have had TWO more children, and we are close to celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary.  And with these 5 years, have come ALOT of extra weight.  But today I resolve....I will do this.  I will make the changes I need to make.  I will get into healthy habits.  I will not give up.

     I will not forbid myself from eating certain things.  Instead, I will CHOOSE not to eat those things that I know are not good for me.  And I will NOT shame myself if I do make a choice that may not be the best.  Because when I do that, I give up.

     My first goals are this: drink more water.  I won't even go as far as say drink ONLY water, just MORE water.  Second: move.  In some way, in some form, move.  No more afternoons on the couch, eating ice cream.  Third: make wise choices.  Instead of that peanut butter cup, choose and apple with peanut butter.  Instead of those chips, choose some carrot sticks.

     It is in these small choices that I will create these good habits.  And then I will add to those habits.  I will do this.  I will not give up.

Here We Go...

Ok, I did it!  I FINISHED a workout DVD today!  I did the whole thing!  And then I died...haha.  Seriously though, I don't think I have ever finished a whole day of a workout DVD.  This one is Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.  WHEW!

I have been in a rut, and it is driving me NUTS.  In the past, oh, 4 weeks, I have lost NOTHING.  ZERO. ZILCH. NADA.  And I am discouraged!  TOTALLY discouraged.  But I am picking myself up and trying again!!!  Here we go, wish me luck!

Vacation

I just got back from a weekend trip to Washington DC and Virginia Beach to see my sister graduate from Law School.  I am so so proud of her!

Vacation is so hard in the losing weight category...but I didn't gain any!  Woo hoo!  I TRIED to be good (but that Big Mac was good, I'll admit).  We walked for a looong time in DC one night, about 3 hours, so I think that helped balance the bad food I ate...

I will lose this weight!  I can do it with God's help.  I know there will be times when I slack off, but as long as I am consistent, patient, and work hard, it WILL work!

Rough First Week

Why does it always seem that when you are trying to lose weight, something goes wrong that throws a wrench into things?  Ha ha...I was doing so good, eating right, drinking lots of water, and dancing away.  Then my son got sick.  We ended up sitting in a rocking chair all day, and then being in the hospital for 7 hours.  So I didn't get to exercise for 2 days, pretty much...it was tough.  But the cool part is, I still lost 4 pounds this week!  Praise the Lord!  I really hope I can keep this up...I am feeling more tired at night, and have more energy throughout the day...this is good!  

Small Steps

Day 3 of my journey...down 3 pounds!!!  Wow, can hardly believe it!  I know, I know, don't get too excited...but every little tiny bit the number drops is SO encouraging!

I have found a way (for now) for me to get in my "workout" every day.  See, I love music. It is in my soul.  It has been a part of my life pretty much from day 1.  So now, I dance my heart out to one of my favorite singers, Mandisa!  Her story is so encouraging to me, and she is one of my heroes!  So I just belt the music out at the top of my voice, and dance away.  With the windows closed, blinds down.  No one wants to see that.  BUT IT'S WORKING!!!!

And I feel like a camel.  I do not think I have ever had so much water in a day in my life!  BUT IT'S WORKING!!!

I know there will be days that aren't as good as today.  That's ok!  I just need to remind myself to keep pushing myself!!! Push myself to never give up.

Tired

I'm so tired.  Tired of looking in the mirror.  Tired of wearing the same clothes all the time because nothing else fits.  Tired of always looking like a whale in pictures.  Tired of feeling tired. Today marks the beginning of a journey.  A journey to find myself.  A smaller, healthier me.  I will do it MY way, not the way of the fads and the way everyone else around me is doing it.  It may take me a long time.  It may not.  But that only depends on ME.  I have to have the determination to do it.  I have to be the one to want it.  And I want it so bad.  This is me.  All 215 pounds of me.  I have always struggled with my weight, and it has just gone too far.  This is for me.  I am tired of the same excuses.  I've had two kids.  I lost a baby and ate because I am sad.  I'm bored.  I'm lonely.  NO MORE EXCUSES!  I have claimed Philippians 4:13 as my inspiration--I CAN do ALL THINGS through CHRIST!  I will do this.  I have to.  

See, I have a husband.  I have children.  And I don't want them to be ashamed of me, or lose me early.  I want to have fun with them, and play with them without getting tired after 5 minutes.  I love them all so much, it hurts!  I want to watch them grow up, and have healthy habits, because mommy has them too.  I don't have to be a stick, like the world thinks everyone should look.  I just want to be healthy.  For me.  For them.