Rough First Week

Why does it always seem that when you are trying to lose weight, something goes wrong that throws a wrench into things?  Ha ha...I was doing so good, eating right, drinking lots of water, and dancing away.  Then my son got sick.  We ended up sitting in a rocking chair all day, and then being in the hospital for 7 hours.  So I didn't get to exercise for 2 days, pretty much...it was tough.  But the cool part is, I still lost 4 pounds this week!  Praise the Lord!  I really hope I can keep this up...I am feeling more tired at night, and have more energy throughout the day...this is good!  

Small Steps

Day 3 of my journey...down 3 pounds!!!  Wow, can hardly believe it!  I know, I know, don't get too excited...but every little tiny bit the number drops is SO encouraging!

I have found a way (for now) for me to get in my "workout" every day.  See, I love music. It is in my soul.  It has been a part of my life pretty much from day 1.  So now, I dance my heart out to one of my favorite singers, Mandisa!  Her story is so encouraging to me, and she is one of my heroes!  So I just belt the music out at the top of my voice, and dance away.  With the windows closed, blinds down.  No one wants to see that.  BUT IT'S WORKING!!!!

And I feel like a camel.  I do not think I have ever had so much water in a day in my life!  BUT IT'S WORKING!!!

I know there will be days that aren't as good as today.  That's ok!  I just need to remind myself to keep pushing myself!!! Push myself to never give up.

Tired

I'm so tired.  Tired of looking in the mirror.  Tired of wearing the same clothes all the time because nothing else fits.  Tired of always looking like a whale in pictures.  Tired of feeling tired. Today marks the beginning of a journey.  A journey to find myself.  A smaller, healthier me.  I will do it MY way, not the way of the fads and the way everyone else around me is doing it.  It may take me a long time.  It may not.  But that only depends on ME.  I have to have the determination to do it.  I have to be the one to want it.  And I want it so bad.  This is me.  All 215 pounds of me.  I have always struggled with my weight, and it has just gone too far.  This is for me.  I am tired of the same excuses.  I've had two kids.  I lost a baby and ate because I am sad.  I'm bored.  I'm lonely.  NO MORE EXCUSES!  I have claimed Philippians 4:13 as my inspiration--I CAN do ALL THINGS through CHRIST!  I will do this.  I have to.  

See, I have a husband.  I have children.  And I don't want them to be ashamed of me, or lose me early.  I want to have fun with them, and play with them without getting tired after 5 minutes.  I love them all so much, it hurts!  I want to watch them grow up, and have healthy habits, because mommy has them too.  I don't have to be a stick, like the world thinks everyone should look.  I just want to be healthy.  For me.  For them.